I see dead people!!!

How many time do you meet someone, have a small talk and when you tell them what you do for a living mulut semua ternganga? Me, i got that a lot...like a lot a lot. 

Adakah rupaku tak sesuai dengan pekerjaan itu? Because I once met my husband's uncle at kenduri kawin. He assumed that hamba ni surirumah. I told him I work at a hospital, he casually said "oh...misi lah ni" (i got that a lot too). 

Last month I went to a course, they have this "Human Library" where we can borrow a book (seorang manusia) and "read" them. I borrowed 3 books. All 3 have dropped their jaw when I introduced myself and my reading time is cut to half since all of the books "read" me instead. How interesting!!!

The thing I do, is my best 'modal' for a small talk with strangers kalau time tu dah takde idea or I have little interest to know them. If I want to make conversation I rather not disclose my job because I will not have the chance to ask question. Bagus juga sebab I love to talk rather than listen (bad ahh??).

So what so interesting about this job? Messy, smelly, gory, scary and not to mention penuh dengan kontroversi. Oh, people like this kind of stuff ya....suka cerita misteri, suka cerita hantu suka gossip dan kontroversi. 

Soalan-soalan wajib tanya, be it from medical colleagues, layman, journalist ialah: 

- "tak takut ker?". I once answered no but now I would answer YES. Hamba takut the next person on the table is me. Belum cukup bekalan nak bawa ke alam akhirat. Belum cukup bertaubat mohon ampun dosa yang dulu2. Takut tiba2 mati....apa nak jawab kat malaikat dlm kubur nanti??

- "tak jumpa menda2 pelik ker?". I once answered no but now I would answer yes. Memang banyak benda pelik. Pelik kenapa manusia boleh berbunuh sesama manusia. Pelik ibu sanggup buang anak. Pelik anak boleh sembelih mak. Pelik bapak boleh dera dan rogol anak. Semua tu menda pelik. Pelik kenapa manusia sudah hilang akal, hilang arah, hilang agama. Memang pelik!!!

Jadi itulah dia, dah 9 tahun kerja ni....seeing dead people, up close and personal. Mohon Allah ampunkan kejahilan yang disengajakan ini. Depan mata tapi tak nampak. Ada mata tapi tak melihat. 

Semoga suatu hari nanti apabila orang bertanya, hamba bisa bercerita tentang manusia yang mati dan apa yang ada disebalik kematian....dan waktu itu harapnya lebih ramai mulut yang tenganga. 

*mencari masa nak tulis apa itu forensik since ramai sangat orang keliru. InsyaAllah